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Tomorrow I'm off.

Slept two hours last night. Packed all my bags, wrote the last recepies and organized my binder. Felt wonderful to take the day off. I'm longing to bed and I can hardly believe it's only midnight and I'm done. There's nothing I have to do.

I think this will be a great camp.

Therese and Hanna got stuck in the traffic just a couple of hours after they left home so they didn't arrive in Stockholm until ten at night. I thought I was going to fall asleep waiting, don't know why I'm so tired, but I'm glad I stayed awake. We all moved Thereses stuff into the apartment and now the livingroom looks a bit like a warehouse. That's fine though, it's nice to have some company over the weekend.

Visited my brother today and processed some films I had laying around in the darkroom. It went okay considering the abscence of running water in the lab and the lack of space. My parents really have filled that small room with all kinds of stuff. Feels like they've kinda cleaned me out.

And the water was great!

Blue and big waves. Noone cared about the swimming ban and how do you explain a floating deck if you're not allowed to swim. Really. Some guys tried to flirt and wanted to help us up on the deck, but we just swam on. Floating on the waves. Boats passed us by and a duck fled to the safety of the rocks.

Efterwards, when we had enough of the sun we went back to my place and ate chocolate cake with tea. It was interesting how the conversation turned more to politics when Ulrica joined us. James and Venla never talk about the world outside our lifes.

And I finally found someone who's not on vacation and has agreed to help with my questions.

New hope!

I don't like people.

Right now I don't like people, usually I do like them. Well, some of them.

I've been trying to plan this camp I'm going on. As head of the kitchen I had this dream that I would've set up the menu and found an answer to all my questions at the end of this week. Then I would take a ferry out in the archipelago somewhere and call my parents so they could pick me up with their boat and I could spend a few days on the sea. Sun, seagulls and blue waves.

Today I realized that the people who know the answers to all my questions, the people who has the documents I need to set up a meny and plan this camp so that I wont have to worry about a thing once we arrive, those people have gone on vacation.

On vacation! And did they tell me? No! So now I have to sit and wait for them to come home before I can do anything else. And what about my vacation? Don't I matter at all?

I don't like people.

Since I was going to church yesterday I figured I could take my bike to my parents house, eat something there and then take my bike home the next morning.

Turned out my parents weren't home and even though I like to think of myself as completely broke I realized my brother was worse off. Instead of having my parents pay for my dinner I ended up giving all my cash to my brother so he could buy some food and I bought my dinner at Café Tre Lyktor. I shouldn't complain though, it cost me hardly anything and the company was great.

Found my camera-cable when I picked up all the stuff from my floor. I was beginning to wonder if I lost it...

View from our balcony at midnight, I love summer nights! Uhm, not my car though... volvo - yuck!

Been a slow week. Haven't done much, mostly sleep. Only makes me more tired.

Went to the store and got the newspaper today so I'll know what's going on in Stockholm this weekend. After Depeche Mode I feel like going to another concert. Don't want to pay for one this time though...

Venla called and wanted me to go to the movies on saturday. Can't really afford it, but she'll be going back up north soon and I wanna hang out with her as much as possible before she leaves town. Abandon us again.

Anyways, I don't have anything else to say. Ciao

So tired today. I think I dreamt getting out of bed like five times before I was awake enough to actually do it. And for some reson I was sure that Martin had come back and was asleep so I had to be really quiet. It took a while before I started thinking about why I was so sure he was home and went to check his room. Naturally it was empty. Must have dreamt something...

Went to Fridhemplan and got a gift for Lella, since she's having a birthday dinner tonight at Camillas house. I took the water-sight road because it's more fun. Everywhere there were people swimming or just lying in the sun. If I had the energy I'd go swimming to. But I think I'll just go to bed before I have to get ready for that dinner.

Oh, and finally it rains!! Just saw the first wet dots on the balcony. I didn't think we'd ever get rain. Now I won't have to go water my grandmas garden. Yey!

I'm so beat!
That was the best concert I've ever been to. I'm so glad Theo couldn't go and I could buy his ticket.

I didn't have time to eat so I just grabbed a banana on my way out. Completely forgot to bring water but made it to Stadion til three o'clock. As usual it paid of and Lella and I got really close to the stage. After Muse (the second opening band) I got this bad headache, cause I don't like Muse. I was tired, thirsty, hungry and was basically ready to go home.

Then suddenly, screams, hands filled the air. And I realized what I was doing there. All the aches and pains disappeared with the first song and after that everything is a haze. Depeche Mode knows how to put on a show! It was wonderful.

Even though it's annoying sometimes with all the people pushing you around, it's always worth it. Standing right next to the stage knowing there are thousands of people standing behind you is just such a great feeling. Huge, really. And I love it!

Now I'm just gonna take a shower and then, can't hardly wait, I'll finally go to bed and dream sweet dreams of music beating in my heart.

Listening to the Knife, trying to get into the mood. Found some clothes to wear afterall. I'm starting to look forward to what the night will bring.

Have to leave in 10 minutes, but first I need to eat something...

Peace!